Hi, everyone!

[Jennifer]

Hi, everyone.

 

I am new to this site, and just found out that I have Maladaptive Daydreaming Disorder. I just want to thank you all for joining and for posting often because I found your posts to be really helpful.

 

I want to try and explain my MD condition, and I also have some questions about MD itself. :

       I am a 14 year old girl, and I began daydreaming when I was a child, around 8 or 9 years old. I have never told anyone like this ever before because I found it to be humiliating, but since we are all alike, I have decided to connect with others like me. I have all of the symptoms of MD, and music and TV shows usually trigger my daydreaming sessions. But what I am most concerned about is the fact that I don't do what I would necessarily call 'daydreaming.' I sort of 'act out my fantasies.' Like a play. I go up to my bedroom and blare music, and make up some kind of story, usually containing the same characters and plot, and just act away. I have this image in my mind of a girl, and I pretend I am her. She's a little Gothic, she has purple eyes, she wears purple lipgloss, and she's just...Gorgeous. I am explaining this because I have heard from a YouTuber that a person with MD, usually girls, plan out a character in their head and it could often be seen as an image of yourself, aka, the daydreamer. And that's what I do. I think of this fictional girl as "me" in my daydreams.

 Here's a link, I have a Photobucket account, and I edited this photo of a girl to my satisfaction and posted it to my Photobucket account. 

http://s803.photobucket.com/albums/yy315/kat2156/?action=view&c...

 

I also have an emotional connection with my fictional characters.

Even though I don't really daydream, does this sound like MD to anyone? Does anyone else do this?

 I'm sorry this is so dang long, I'm just so confused because I found out about MD on complete accident and realized that I have all of the symptoms except for the excessive daydreaming...I excessively 'act out my fantasies.' I am embarrassed of this, and tired of feeling guilty about this...It's really humiliating that I am 14 and do something like this, but I just need answers, please. Please, I'm practically begging, this is something I have kept quiet for numerous amounts of years, and I am hoping to God that someone will be able to understand exactly what I am talking about. Please, please please comment. Thank you SO, so much everyone. I hope I don't come off as annoying, haha, I am just so confused, and I find that this site and you great people may be able to answer most of my questions for me. Thank you!!

 

Jennifer. :)

[Jennifer]

@Hamtaro

Hi!

Thank you for your comment, you seem really, really kind! I am SO relieved I am not alone on this, and it's great to meet someone else in their teenage years who does the same thing. I've always felt guilty and kind of like a freak because of this, lol. But I'm glad you commented, it really helped me! :D I'm really glad there's a name for it too, I didn't want to have to end up in some kind of mental hospital, lol! 

Nice to meet you, Hamtaro!

[Jennifer]

@TJ

Hi, your comment really made me smile, you came off in a really friendly way, thank you! I really appreciate your kindness, and I'm glad you commented, it really helped me out.

You said you're 31 and still daydream? Wow, that's crazy but at at least you know you're not alone. I will probably be doing this my whole life. :/ We're all the same, haha.

-Jennifer:)

[havoc]

i do the same :) i prefer to act out my daydreams rather than 'think' them. it kind of makes it more 'real' for me haha. and there is no need to feel guilty or humiliated at all! i'm two years older than you and i used to feel exactly that, until i discovered that there is a name for it and that other people do it. i still feel a bit guilty sometimes though, but i think that's 'normal' xD it's funny that we (maybe not all of us) find it reassuring to know that we are not the only one who does it.

[Jennifer]

@John

 

Really? Wow, I didn't know I had much in common with other people. I appreciate your comment, and I can relate so much to what you said about your daydreams being about yourself. I do this all of the time, and I don't feel so ashamed of it anymore now that I'm actually getting responses from other people saying they're doing similar things. Thank you for sharing your story, and for your comment! Much appreciated.

xx Jennifer. :D

[Jennifer]

@J Noland

Woow, thank you ever so much for your kind words, it is SO reassuring to hear this from someone who can actually connect with me. I am really glad you decided to post things because you pretty much made my day, haha, I really, really appreciate your comment! Thank you!

-Jennifer :)

[J Noland]

Hello! Many of us pace, rock, twirl or dance while daydreaming. I act out several gestures and say things out loud too. I have read of lots of others acting things out too so you are not a freak or anything like that. You are so lucky to not be alone with this while growing up. I am in my 30's and only found out this past summer that there are other people just like me and we're perfectly sane :) I'm glad the posts are helping you. I was just going to be a lurker on this site but I decided to post so that maybe I could be helpful to someone. So thanks for being brave and sharing your story because you never know if there's a scared person out there who is feeling better because of you and what you've shared. I keep my md secret from everyone I know in real life. My family just thought I was a weird kid who rocked and laughed to herself while listening to music for hours. They still bring it up sometimes, "remember when you used to rock all the time?" oh if they only knew!