Hey everyone

[ashilla]

My name's Ashilla, I'm twenty. I work and go to college. MD hasn't really interferred with my life and it hasn't affected me the way it has alot of you guys, from what I've read. In high school and now I'd say I'm pretty social and outgoing. Always looking to make new friends and I actually read a real lot. But in recent years I haven't really indulged in it as much. Unlike alot of you, as I got older I pretty much only daydream about real people and real things happening. More of like, practicing for future social interactions or just having a conversation with someone that I wish I could have had, or probably will have and I'm just pretty much making a loose script for myself to follow, things like that. Or those daydreams that I think everyone has, that they are a famous actor or singer. Or doing kind of an "interview", answering questions or explaining things I feel strongly about. I do do it outloud when no one is around and I do pace or do a repetitive activity.

 

But when I was younger, I'd say like from 11-14 or so I would only daydream about characters I'd made up. I was really shy and I guess it was a coping mechanism but I also sometimes preferred it to real life. I've always wanted to be a film maker or writer (but that's unrealistic so I settled for psychologist/english teacher) so they would be like movies in my head and I would act them out while pacing and doing a repetitive activity. The main character would always be myself but playing another character in a movie. I'd thought of alot of great storylines and tried writing them but lost intrest once I got more into my social and academic life.

 

Now that I've found this site and read all of your stories I really miss the times when I was able to indulge in that fantasy world. I know it's probably for the best that I can't since it sounds like it has negatively affected alot of you but I really do miss being that creative :/

[ashilla]

i actually don't drive, mostly because i live in the city. but i lately i really want to get my liscence and that has been on my mind alot. since music is a big trigger for me i am kind of worried i'll be really distracted.

 

if anyone has any advice on how you manage driving with md i'd really appreciate it

[Cordellia Amethyste Rose]

Be careful, though.  The fact that it's not a problem now doesn't mean you should just daydream all you want.  Learn to manage and control it while you still can.  Don't let it become a problem like it has for many of us.  Trust me, if it gets bad, you'll regret not having controlled it earlier.  Just keep that in mind.