Hello

[Riley]

 I was told a blog post would be the best thing to do that's why I bring my previous post over here.

 So this is the first time ever I write down my thoughts I always thought about it I mean telling someone but I never could I always thought about a diary but even there I was scared someone would find it and make fun of me.
I Daydream a lot as long as I can remember I think it all started when i was around 6 or 7 I remember I could only sleep with music so my mom got me a CD player with headphones and every night I went to this place in my mind it's a beautiful place where you can be who ever or what ever you want and it dose not matter if you do wrong because you can fix it.
At the beginning it was dreams or fantasy's about me being a famous singer because that was my dream growing up I wanted to become a singer and I actual can sing in real life I'm just one of many who never made it.
When i got older it became all about love and it still is. I want to make clear that i do not have sex in my daydreams not that I think that this would be bad but my fantasy's never go that way it's more about obsessive love.
I have 9 characters in my dreams at the moment the guys are mostly famous people everyone knows but the characters they have are mine. The Lady's are made up by me looks and characters and they are all beautiful inside and out I think they are all like I would like to be not saying that I think I'm ugly or anything.
I have those dreams about the same people for months at a time and when they run out I switch over to the others.
My most complex one would be Kayla I don't even know how to explain her even thou I made her up and can't seem to let her go I don't know much to do with her.
In my dreams Kayla is sitting in a window waiting for someone and thoughts running to her mind. There is no real interaction what so ever with other people shes just waiting to be found by someone who will love her forever. I made her up must mean I'm totally insane huh ?
Anyhow I have a favorite couple Jaden and Mike ... Mike would do anything for her without a question I'm holding on to those two for the past 4 years.
In real life people tell me they believe I'm a total romantic perhaps I'm but just by reading what I just wrote here I believe I'm a total nut. I will always care about people finding out I'm always scared someone sees me sitting in front of a PC staring at a pic because sometimes I also talk and or grin if something funny happend. I also cry music is still the biggest influence on my daydreams.
There is so much more to say and I could go on forever and longer but I think for right now that should do.

[roxanne]

I think  it's very creative & beautiful.  Does any one paint?

[Riley]

This painting is absolutely stunning !
I see how this could remind you of Kayla only that she has long black hair big green teary eyes  and wears a white dress + shes always sitting in the dark.
Which now creeps me out a bit because it makes me think of the famous ghostly " women in white" great now I'm scared of what I made up lol

[roxanne]

http://www.artchive.com/artchive/r/rossetti/rossetti_day_dream.jpg

[roxanne]

I love Kayla - sounds like a movie, or book or painting.  Have you seen the painting of Daydreamer.  She's outside in a tree, but reminds me of Kayla.  Will try to post link.

[stranger in a strange land]

I hold on to the same characters too. I haven't changed much for 5 years now. Before that, I had something going on for 4 years, but it somehow stays connected. One of the characters came for a visit lol. There was some nostalgia going on. What I wanted to say is that, it even feels weird when I add new characters. There are 5 at this current. And 2 were a new addition since last month or so. Quite stressfull. When I add a new character, I want to meet them, which leads to not spending so much time with main ones any more. That's why it feels weird. But, then, when we get to know each other it's usually all back to normal. Normal as in spending enough time with each of the characters. Just wanted to point that out.

 

@Laila: Pokemon were sooo great :D Ash was my hero back then ^^ But my classmates made fun of those who were watching it. So, I was denying it and sometimes I even felt bad while watching, because it reminded me of what others would say if they knew. So I haven't seen many episodes. The weirdest thing, EVERYONE was watching it. It was just that some were cool, and some weren't. School was always such a bad place for me :( I suppose that's what got me started with daydreaming; and the fear probably led to MD. As for Digimon, I never saw that. I've heard of it though. Can't help it, Pokemon ftw \o/

[Laila]

@Riley: Yeah... Love is in the aiiir! For our imaginary couples, lol. Well, it's nice to know that someone else has been holding on to the same characters for 4+ years, like I have. It seems that a lot of people are able to create new main characters and leave the others behind, but that's difficult for me to do. D: And you're not insane for making any of your characters up! All of mine are made up. Some of my supporting characters look like celebrities, but their other qualities are original.

 

I don't mind daydreaming about sex, though. When their physical intimacy matches their emotional intimacy, it's a lot more thrilling. But I do spend a lot of time daydreaming about foreplay, such as my characters kissing on the dock and staring intensely into each other's eyes. Ahhh~ x3

 

@Stranger: Yeah, Pokemon and Digimon... Those were the days. xD Eh, I'm STILL watching Digimon, but I don't daydream about the characters anymore T_T. My couples from Digimon were actually pretty romantic back then. o_o;;

[stranger in a strange land]

Hey, Riley!

I think I can relate to your DD. Practicly I DD the same way. Mostly it includes famous people and some are made up. The 'plot' seems to be pretty much the same as well. Romance and love but no sex. Loads of talking most of the time. And even that curious case of Kayla is a lot like me. I'm like that. A woman just waiting to be loved by someone :/ obviously that isn't gonna happen unless I get more social lol. But I'm working on that.

Like you said you're afraid to be found with a silly grinn on your face when daydreaming. I feel the same. I don't pace or tap my foot, but I do make faces and also, sometimes, but rarely, I talk.

I also have to tell you, music plays a big role in my life as well. I went to music school but I quit after I very successfully finished the first year. I didn't like the schooling system or whatever... I am now a selflearner and try to play synthesizer. The goal was to play piano, but I can't learn that by myself & it's ti expensive to get one in a first place. However my priority in music is now singing :) I love it and I do it most of the time. Shower, while doing the dishes, cleaning, ironing, driving... ALL THE TIME :D I love it, it's relaxing. Although I don't need music to sleep, but I do need DD to sleep. So, that may be kind of the same too.

Oh, and when my DD started, when I was around 9, I obviously didn't DD about romantic dinners and stuff. Back then I had my own upgraded version of Pokemon and I was pretty badass. Haha, kinda miss those days, not saying I want them back. There was just a lot more exciting stuff going on :D Just saying.

Anyway, sorry for such a long reply. I just couldn't stop typing. And thanks for sharing this :) It's good to know that I'm not the only one having this kind of DDs. Hope you feel good about this too!!