Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
So I'm new to this website and this is my first blog post.
It's also my first time ever talking/writing or communicating with anyone about this so it's a bit weird writing this and being able to just say how I feel.
I'm so glad I found this website! For years I thought there was something wrong with me and I was developing schizophrenia or something, I'm sure loads of you guys felt the same! Hell I'm still scared I might go crazy!
Anyways, I'm 21 now and in my final year of college and I noticed that my MDD gets worse when I'm stressed or under pressure. For years I gave in to it and I used it to procrastinate and avoid my responsibilities but not any more. I'm trying to take control over my life again. Hence why I'm here talking about it.
It's weird how addictive it actually is and how much of your time it can take over if you allow it to!
I just want to be free from it now! I understand its a really creative outlet and it probably has benefits, like we can probably relate to people more in different scenarios because we've acted out every role possible! But I find it really hard to concrete all the time and I feel if this MDD was somehow not a part of my life then I could actually achieve the things I dream about.
So yeah, I dunno if people even read these blog posts or how things work on here but it feels good to be able to get this massive secret of my chest somewhere.