Where wild minds come to rest
my daydreaming has decreased a lot lately, and i think i might have an idea why.
as i've mentioned on here several times before, my daydreaming tends to decrease when i'm in a relationship. my daydreams have a strong romantic element, so my theory is that when i'm getting that romance in real life, my needs are met and i don't feel the need to daydream as much. i'm currently in a new relationship as of last month, and i'm not daydreaming nearly as much as i used to.
but i noticed a decrease in daydreaming even before i met my now-boyfriend.
a big reason why daydreaming is so addicting to me is because i think that my characters are super interesting, and i'm very attached to them. they have a lot going on in their lives, and it's fun to imagine new scenarios and situations that they get themselves into. the plot of my daydreaming basically revolves around a band that becomes famous. my characters are the band members and their friends and families.
i originally came up with this daydream world and these characters when i was 12, and now i'm 21. i am now involved in a real life community of musicians, and i have a lot of friends because of it. in a way, it feels like i've become the daydream. not my exact daydream, obviously, but sometimes my life is so crazy that it seems like it could be a daydream of its own.
i've always had mental illnesses other than MD like depression and anxiety. but the older i get, the more people i meet and the crazier my life gets. and i'm not necessarily less depressed or less anxious, but i'm more high-functioning. and i think daydreaming is what i needed to do to cope for a long time, but i'm not sure if it's something i need now. and i might subconsciously be daydreaming less because of that.
i'm very scared of losing my daydreams and my characters, but i'm trying not to think about it. i just felt like i needed to check in on here because it's been awhile.
as always, if anyone is reading this, feel free to message me if you want to talk about MD or need support or advice. it might take awhile for me to reply, but i'll log back on eventually. i hope you are all doing well.