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Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest

An Introduction, I guess

MD has both ruined parts of my life and made others infinitely amazing. Because I have daydreams, as well as go to an online school, I've pretty much ostracized myself and am left with one friend I see every-so-often, and a few oldies that I chat with online sometimes. I haven't made a new "friend" in over a year, considering that I talk to so many people online. I hear people say "Go outside and make new friends!" Yeah, that would be great, if it weren't for the fact that I can hardly walk past a person without freaking out a little bit inside. I wonder how many people have walked past me and think I'm rude as can be.

It wasn't as bad last year. I was in a nice little club that met up once a week to share our writings, leading me to not only have friends and motivation for school, but also motivation to write, which pushed away my daydreams.

Unfortunately, this club was cancelled this year. I have no motivation to write, no motivation to last another week that doesn't disappear, and all the friendships I made kind of fizzled away.

I don't hate my MD, I love all the different worlds I make. I love my happy endings and romances.

But every time one ends, I'm left with reality to fall down upon me.

And that's why I want to stop.

And that's why I don't.

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Comment by DebbieP. on September 26, 2016 at 7:03am: Having MDD for almost 50 years, my advice to you would be to try and go to a regular school where you have to interact with real people. If that's not possible, then become involved some other way. Join the YMCA, join a church - anything to get you back into the world. Jump back into the world now, while your young. The older you get, the hard it gets and the poorer your social skills become. You don't want to be approaching 60 and look back on a wasted life :(

Comment by MatthewR on April 6, 2016 at 9:26pm: People probably think I am rude as well. I don't mean to be, of course, but I struggle with finding the right words to say. I've lost contact with all the people i went to school with, and the only friends i have now are online. Coming back down to reality used to be really difficult for me. I can't tell you the number of days i've lost to MD. I totally sympathize.