Almost three years later.

[Mila Wayland]

I was recommending this website to someone the other day when it occurred to me that I haven't logged on here in at least three years. I was eighteen-turning-nineteen when I last made a post and now I'm twenty-one-turning-twenty-two. Man, time does fly. 

In that time span, my MDD hasn't really gotten better or worse, to be honest. It's stayed pretty stagnant which I guess could be a good thing - it means at least I'm not falling deeper into it. But it also means I'm not getting any better, which means more sleepless nights and more zoning out in class and, well, you know the drill. 

So as far as the MDD front, I guess I don't really have anything new to report, even after three years. The only thing that's changed are the dreams themselves, of course, because I've experienced a lot and learned a lot in those three years. 

I'd write more but I'm on the tired side and multitasking by watching Jay Leno, what a night.

[Lucrezia Duchessa]

My DDing has been so low these days... in the sense that I don't have that rush of adrenaline anymore. I just feel tired sometimes and miserable sometimes.

I need new content. *shakes head*

[Cordellia Amethyste Rose]

It can get better.  Mine was horribly, miserably out of control for most of my life.  Now, I still do it, but it doesn't bother me as much.  Accepting it as part of me has helped me to feel better.  Judging myself and trying to fight it only made it worse.  That's not to say that I don't want to do it less.  I'm pretty sure I do do it less.  I've stopped running away from it and started running towards other things.  If you focus on what's chasing you, you'll never go anywhere; you'll just run around scared.  Find something to run towards.  We're here for you.  Daydreaming is more pleasant for me now.  I still zone out all the time, but I just accept that that's how I function.  It's not a flaw.  I still learn and grow.  It's ok.  It's gotten better, and hopefully it will keep getting better.