about my daydreaming.

[debbie downer]

i've never really made a post saying everything that i do when i'm daydreaming, blahblahblah. i just kind of comment on people's blogs and discussions with things that i do. so here it is all in one place.

 

how it started:

the first time i ever remember daydreaming in a way that was MD-ish was when i was 9 or 10 (i'm 14 now). i was in the car and it was only a 45 minute drive, but that's a long time for a 9 year old. :P i made up a character that was based on myself and made up friends for her and thought of things that they did. the next thing i knew, i couldn't stop. i daydreamed about the characters again before i went to sleep, when i was bored at school... whenever i got the chance. i never really thought anything of it and i don't know why. i never googled it until last year. but anyways, i lost interest in that daydream story when i was 12, and after that i actually stopped daydreaming for a month! o: but then i came up with new characters and it started all over again. -_-

 

who knows:

the first person i told about my daydreaming was my mom... i told her when i found out what MD was. she freaked out and whenever i talk about my daydreaming she tells me to stop because it makes her nervous. she hates the name "maladaptive daydreaming disorder" because she says that the word "maladaptive" makes me sound psycho. i told her to promise not to tell my dad, and she promised... but then she told him anyway. he's never said anything about it to me, but my mom told me that she told him. my mom made me go to a therapist because of my daydreaming, and i told the therapist about it. i don't go to a therapist anymore but yeah. also, of course, everyone on this website knows. xD and i have a blog on tumblr where i post about my daydreaming, because there are people on tumblr that have MD, too, and we all follow each other. it's kind of like a little club, haha. i have one friend in real life that knows my tumblr, and so she knows about my daydreaming, but she wouldn't tell anyone.

 

movements:

most people have movements that they make when they daydream, like pacing, rocking or moving their hands. when i had the first daydream, i didn't make any movements at all. i don't mean that i just sat there hahaha, i mean i didn't pace or move my hands or anything. now, i pace. right when i was losing interest in my first daydream, the pacing started. i don't remember why or exactly when i started pacing, i just know it was around that time. when i say pacing, i don't mean just walking back and forth, i mean a combination of walking and running hahaha. i don't usually notice when i'm running until my mom yells from upstairs "stop running back and forth, you're shaking the whole house!" xD when i daydream about more... calm (that's not the right word to describe it but whatever) parts of my daydream, i prefer to be lying down, usually on my bed or on my couch. i don't have to be pacing or lying town to daydream, because i daydream when i'm just sitting there in class all the time. i just prefer to be pacing or lying down.

 

triggers:

music is my main trigger, especially when i'm listening to my ipod. my daydreams tend to go with the mood of the music. but what's weird is that when i'm lying down and daydreaming, music isn't a trigger- it actually makes me stop daydreaming because for some reason when i'm lying down i can't concentrate on my daydreams when i'm listening to music. o_0 also, boredom is a big trigger. i daydream at school all the time, but i somehow manage to get good grades. o: when something happens on a tv show or in a movie or book that i'm watching/reading and i like it, i'll sometimes make it happen to one of my characters later. not anything big, just little things that they say and stuff like that. same with if something happens with one of my friends in real life.

 

 

for information about what my daydreams are like (like, the plot, characters, etc), go to my other blogs. i didn't go into too much detail because i would feel uncomfortable telling people exactly what goes on in my head half of the time that i'm awake, but i say a little about the characters and stuff.

[Riley]

Hey you have been real brave telling your mom all about your MD . I just wish she would have reacted differently perhaps at that moment she did not understand what MD is ??

And NO you are not psycho !!

[Truthful Alibi]

I admire your courage to tell your mum, I couldn't imagine ever telling anyone!

I DD in school as well, especially in maths! It's the most boring subject I have! Geography and history would be worse normally but in both these lessons my crush sits next to me, hooray! Sorry, I'm going off topic. I do that a lot.

I do the walk/run pacing thing too, only I tend to stomp about, but normally to music, so my dad thinks I'm dancing! XD I just let him think that, he wouldn't believe me if I told him the real reason.

I nick stuff from books and stuff as well, lol. But I can't help it if someone had an amazing idea that would be even more amazing in my DDs... XD