Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
Yes, it's true. I've been daydreaming since I was a very small child. I grew in a very chaotic and unpredictable household. Daydreaming was the only escape. I continued to do it in school, I think, because it was stressful to be there with all those other kids. There was no end to the stress, so I went even deeper when I got to Junior High. In fact, a teacher actually commented to me that I could leave the room, being physically present but absent otherwise. I had to be there so it was the only way I could protect myself. I have had various kinds of therapy since 1990 but have never spoken to any of them about this and no one has ever asked me. As I grew into an adult, I continued to daydream, finding jobs where I could be alone with my thoughts and still work. They were low paying, grunt work type jobs. I have musical and verbal talents but was told that because I wasn't attractive, that I would never be successful. In my imaginary world, my weight is normal and I'm considered attractive, even beautiful. I'm admired and respected by important people.
I never knew it was maladaptive until the other day when I was Googling about something else and I saw something about daydreaming and clicked on it. I realized that I had spent my whole life living inside my head. I'm still seeking the approval of famous people who are successful and respected.