The other day I had a moment of clarity about my life. I looked at myself and thought, what the heck have I done with my life. Nothing. Nothing at all really. So then, of course I have begun to DD at every possible moment. When I don't have to be engaged in life, I am off in my mind.

Sometimes, I think that DD cripples me. Sometimes, I feel like it saves me. I guess it truly is an addiction.

Usually, I have no desire to stop because it feels harmless to me. A few days later, I…