I found that actually doing something instead of thinking about it is one step forward, I'm scared ill never become the person I wanna be cause she lives in my head and is me. I wanna give up her life cos she can have it back, it just makes all my motivation to be conscious go away and I wanna hold on to the motivation. Ill never figure this out. I need to be trained to become confident. That'll solve my hugest dreams.

I know I need to stop so I can be like everyone else but I love it, I love doing it in my spare time too but I do it at school for an hour straight at times. I lost all my mates and rather hang up on them and daydream instead of listening to them. I feel unpure and ruined. don't know why I would ever want to though. My life is boring and I have nothing of passion. I'm scared to give it up. Is it really worth trying to get back into reality permanently? I need a good reason to give it up and… Continue