I work in an extremely stressful environment and I've been in it for a long time.  I honestly think that this has happened because of stress.   There are other life events that have happened and so my MDD.  As no life is without stress I wonder if I will ever get better.

http://news.nationalgeographic.com/news/2013/07/130716-daydreaming-science-health-brain/

I dreamed of the ballet and woke up feeling hopeful.   I'd bet physical exercise, like a sport of some kind would be just the thing.  It would link the mind back to the body. 

She was human he was an alien whose race had mastered the space time continuum.

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They were a couple from Los Angeles who staged their own death.

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It was Paris in the seventeen hundreds and he'd fallen in love with his house keeper who…

Spent the afternoon in the sunlight keeping company with two religious figures and the ghosts of Goetia.   Reduced myself to tears and I can't remember why. Maybe I needed a cigarette.  My pen pal says it's the writing process.

No wonder I can't get much done.

The more I am aware of MD, the more I am aware of the necessity of stilling the mind.   Mental chatter can sometimes be the enemy of clarity.   A monk I was watching said he called it "monkey mind" because his mind was chattering on like a monkey.   A rabbi I watched had an entire sermon dedicated to the virtue of stillness.…

He's standing behind me looking over my shoulder long blond hair in his eyes.  He sees that I'm writing on an internet blog he arches a brow at me and smirks.  He points one long slender pale finger at the screen and says, "Now that's interesting, are you sure you want to share this?"

I say: "No.  Not really.  Because this is the TV channel in my head that is on all the time, the one I can rarely turn off.  Besides sometimes you scare me."



He smirks a little and…

Peace

Meditating now

Present moment quiet time

Makes the mind grow still

Breakfast

Bran flakes in a…

I love a man who isn't there

And yesterday upon the stair

He wasn't there again

He isn't…