I havnt been on here in awhile just couldnt face it i was doing good went about a month without the daydreams then i gave in and i felt i couldnt stop i hate that i feel the compulsion to do it i hate that i feel like it controls me...

im tired of trying last year alone i dedicated the whole year to giving it up 235 days i didnt give in and 130 days i did and now its another year the same fight i cant take it anymore the back and forth its taking away from me wearin…