I didn't know this is what I was doing when I was living this way and I didn't know what I was doing when I figured out how to stop--not stop, but suppress them, became aware of when they came and ignored them. I don't remember when it was but I realized how often I was in a different reality while physically next to me there was a person I was supposed to be experiencing life with. somehow from that thought, I worked on becoming more aware and I squashed them, I squashed all of them, all my…