I'm typing this because it feels like signing a contract. I want to stop DD, right now, today, not tomorrow or next week or next month, now.

Simce I DD from early childhood, this will be my biggest challenge so far. And my biggest fear.

But I guess I've reached my breaking point. If I don't stop I'll go mad. I'm 21 and when I look back I don't recognize myself. I want my life back, actually, I want my mind back. I want to see things, see through a window without having…