I'm sorry this is so long - I'm treating it like a journal entry. I've never posted to a site before and don't think what I write will be of any help, but just reading posts of others who suffer this has helped me immensely. When I researched this, and learned this MDD was a thing, I hit the roof. I've suffered from this for almost 20 years. Just writing this post right now feels like a gulp of fresh air, so if you're reading - I'm sorry it's long winded and rambling.

I've never…