I'm new to this forum and I wasn't sure I wanted to share something right away but there's something that I wanted to add that may hopefully help someone - one thing I don't see on anyone's posts - although maybe I'm not going back far enough?

And that is that, for me, my addiction to my imaginary life happened because, as a child, I really came to hate myself. I hated who I was.

I remember when I was very little I used to have more normal fantasies, about growing up to become…