I'm glad you joined and hope you can find some relief here.  I'm sorry you had to deal with the spammers.  We fortunately don't get that many, but they do pop up on occasion.  Most people on here are real, legitimate, and extremely supportive.  If you ever need to rant about something or want to know if you're alone in feeling a certain way, feel free to post it.  Often you'll find out that many others felt that way too.  If you ever need anything, feel free to message me any time.