Negative Daydreaming

[Miriam]

I did some research and figured out that I have maladaptive daydreaming. I daydream all the time. All my daydreams are negative and horrid. Most of my daydreaming is about me getting kidnapped at 5 or 6 years old. I am bought and sold. I get tortured, beaten and whipped. Then when I get to 8 or 9 years people rape me over and over again while still torturing me. I do no know why I have these daydreams, when I finally come out I feel a little sad. I was never kidnapped or raped. I do not watch anything like this on TV or read in books. The only thing is remembering being yelled at a lot as a child by my father.