Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
An MD addict since 20 years ago, I've reasoned with myself to stop it altogether. It was a big mistake even starting the fantasies, because it did do a lot of damage. I didn't get far in life, in terms of a career, and I never had any relationships. I never even achieved my goals, because I was so fuzzed out in daydream land. When I turned my 30's, I was horrified at how often I got lost in my daydreams, instead of living a real life that could've been wonderful, if I hadn't been living on another planet. The losses of life opportunities that I suffered were devastating and nearly put me into a depressive state. Of course, I am very content now, but still disappointed that everything I wanted never worked out.
Healing from MD was tough as well. I was so haunted that I would ever do something like that. At moments when at work, the horrified expression would form on my face. But nowadays, I'm feeling more positive than ever, though I wonder if things will ever pick up on a positive note after I've learned my lesson. Will I get a second chance?
Now I can start living and with a clear mind can pay more attention to my surrounding environment. Unfortunately, it happens to be the global pandemic, so it's extremely hard to start over just now. Life is full of overcoming obstacles that way.
Fortunately, I discovered what I may want to do with my life. Even though the job market is quite scarce, I will not press my luck and keep hunting for that ideal job.