So Incredibly Bored Without MDD

[MGee]

I have daydreamed literally since I can remember. I'm 26 now and I want it to go away. I used to feel like it wasn't a big deal and that it would just go away eventually. 7 of my friends got engaged this year and I feel like everyone is moving on and I'm still stuck. I had a breakdown over this situation last week and I haven't allowed myself to daydream in 9 days now. I'm so angry and sad with myself for reaching this point I'm my life and never working towards getting rid of my daydreaming.

The problem is, I have been painfully bored. I feel so strange. it took me until today to realize that I have literally never allowed my brain to just be at ease and feel serene.

I'm scared to let my brain be inactive for long because I naturally slip into daydreaming without noticing, so I have been listening to podcasts my ENTIRE day while doing work.

I miss daydreaming so badly. If I think about my characters, I feel like I'll have a breakdown over not going back to that world. I just wish they could be real so badly :/.

At this point, my fear of losing my entire life to MDD is driving me forward. I just am terrified of the inevitable silence and how to handle it without going into a daydream.

I've been listening podcasts, YouTube, Netflix, etc. But I know I'll eventually have to face the silence.

Does anyone have any experience on how to fill that void? I used to try to write my story, but I'm honestly scared to even do that at this point. I need to get better.

[Lynn E.]

I have had MD for more than 60 yrs (I didn't know what it was until just recently) . I have struggled with it through childhood , as a young adult ,  over 42 years of marriage , and raising a son and two relatives children . This unrealistic fantasy world has robbed me of most of my life . And you are right, it is a great challenge to strive to walk in freedom of this  disorder. But , it is worth every effort to be completely free and walk in wholeness.

I pray every day and read my bible , seeking the face of God(His character...His Will for my life) . There is a reason that we are still here on earth ,...many have died and never really lived in real life ,...only existed.  I believe if we continuously yield our hearts to God in prayer and dedication , He will deliver us completely.  

I believe that I am in my healing process ( and it is a process).  When I find that I have slipped into daydreaming (unaware),I will speak out against it ... I'll say   " I'm not going to think about that .. my mind belongs to God ,I choose to think on things that are wholesome , good and real."  [ then I choose something uplifting to think about]

 Some times I'll quote the 23rd Psalms or part of Psalms 91 in my bible , and have a short prayer and sing a song of praise to God .He honors it, and I have a since of peace and serene. God is so good and He loves us unconditionally,....which is awesome!!

Be encouraged ,...YOU CAN DO IT !!!!!    YOU WILL get netter,in Jesus Name !  

GOD Loves YOU !!!! 

[OhMyMagenta]

Maybe try Mindfulness exercises, grounding skills that will distract & actively engage your brain, or meditation. Mindfulness is all about being present in the moment; perhaps that might help?

[Rose]

I feel like I could've written this post. I'm your age and everyone's growing up but I'm still living partly in this imaginary world.

I haven't properly DD'd now for about 3 months (proper for me is talking, pacing, acting it out), since being involved in a very time/energy consuming theatre production. But some nights I go to bed and all I want to do is fantasise about my character and what he's doing. Sometimes I just visualise him at home, or out walking his dog or something. It disturbs me that I can't be in love/this fascinated with a real person.

Finding a creative outlet is important for me. All my writing and art is based on my DD, and I find when I'm painting scenes from it I'm not acting it out. Joining amateur theatre has also really helped me.