I'm only 16. I've used daydreaming as a coping mechanism since I could think. Now I use it to run away from every little thing that are a bigger deal to everyone else and sometimes myself. I'm in high school. My classes are extremely demanding. I raised my gpa a bit, but not to where I had it in the beginning. I took the ACT. I got a stupid 18 and refuse to tell my boyfriend because him and our group of friends got above a 25. I feel so embarrassed. You want to know what I did during that test? I ran away. I ran away and gave up before I got till the end. No college is going to want me because I can't stop daydreaming. I can't stop running away and pretending that that fantasy life that lives inside of me is real. I even place people in my classes inside that fantasy life so it'd feel even more real. What the hell am I doing to myself? 

I'm a smart kid. I promise. I work hard. I just don't know what to do with this stupid issue. It has taken control over my life to the point where it's not only affected my high school life, but my life at home. My mom is pissed all the time because I'm someplace else when she asks something from me. Everyone in my family resents me for it. I'm no longer their smart person in the family. I'm the one above the clouds all the time. And a huge part of me thinks that place is real. What am I doing to myself? Why do I keep doing this? Anyone else with a similar issue? What did you do? 

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Hello Floresita!
I'm in a situation very similar to yours. I'm only 14, I'll be 15 tomorrow. Daydreaming has made me procrastinate profusely, and I feel physically ill from withdrawal if I haven't daydreamed in a while. I can usually control it at school, mostly because I need to be listening to music and jumping in order to daydream, which is also a problem with my family, because it's a worrysome thing, I'm sure, to see me jumping around all day for hours on end. My grades have suffered as well, because though I pay attention in class, it all stops there, no homework, no studying. It pains me to say that I'm ashamed of myself, this is not the person I've wanted to be, I've been expected to be, or I expect myself to be... and I want nothing more than for this to end.

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