just joined, but as I'm replying to things and starting to read posts, I'm getting this feeling of want ng to just stop, signout, delete everything. I'm feeling like my BF or kids or somebody will open my computer and find this or google my name and it comes up... and its not like I'm doing anything bad ,but I feel like I would be really upset
Dont be scared, maybe try using your phone instead of a laptop if you want to feel safer and more private.
I believe this site is extremely private so don't worry about it. Also, don't try to force yourself to login when you are feeling a little paranoid. Find the right time, relax, then join us here, you are welcome at anytime.
Good luck!