New here and this is my story

[Sharni]

Hello. My name is Sharni. Im 19 and since i was a little girl ive been day dreaming. My childhood wasnt great, full of abusive parents with drug problems, constant moving due to being a foster child and the suicide of my mother. I was about 8 when i begun to daydream. I would sneak off to the garden and pace around while indulged in my our imaginary world. I would spend hours like that. No one really noticed. As i got older it got worse, i was spending more time alone in my own world than in reality. By the time i was 12 i had fallen in a deep depression and i wasnt supported by my foster family. Everyday after school i would come home then lock myself in my room and sit by the window and day dream for hours. It was my escape. I made up imaginary friends who i grew attached to, i made up places and even myself. The story line would change every month or so depending on my surroundings. It continued and i still do it now. I haven't told anyone about it. Not even my boyfriend. I found lately that i will become agitated if i havent gone into my world for awhile and i will purposely go home and be away from people just to spend hours in my world. Its made me less productive, whenever i wanr to clean my house or get something done i find myself stuck in this world and i never do what i need to. It takes alot of effort to come out of it and do what i need to. I get worried that im crazy or that it will get worse..can anyone relate?