My Daydreaming Experiences

[Bnova99]

Hello, this would be the first time I've ever talked/written about my daydreaming, today I just felt like getting this out of my chest.

It all started when I was around seven years old, I played my first videogame and I loved it, that very same day before falling asleep I started fantasizing about it and created my own characters while using the game's context. As I grew older I thought my daydreaming would cease but instead it just grew stronger. My fantasy worlds are now much more complex, you could easily make a movie/novel out of one of my fantasies. My fantasies have very complex plots, I've made my own worlds and contexts and the characters/protagonist (the idealized version of myself) have a reason behind all their actions, I feel everything the protagonist feels, thus I often cry if he/she is crying. Daydreaming is so important for me that my fantasies have become more important than my daily life activities. In my paracosms (fantasies) I have my own lovers, so I've never really cared about real life ones and I have few real life friends because most of my friends are imaginary, but I don't care, for me they are just as important as real life ones.

I daydream at least half an hour everyday before falling asleep, it can last all night, sometimes I don't even get to sleep. Every night I continue the daydream from the last day, stories can last months. My fantasies can become so weird that I daydream about a world, and in that world a character is sent to another world, and the plot starts there. I used to daydream at school too but had to learn not to because I never paid attention to what the teacher said and my grades where getting really bad. Now I rarely daydream at school. I'm not religious but my family makes me go to church. I don't complain because it makes an excellent place to daydream, everyone thinks I'm paying attention but I'm actually daydreaming.

Daydreaming became a problem for me in junior high school, people started calling me autistic because I would often space-out, this teasing stopped when I learned not to daydream in school. I also used to see drawings made by me with the characters from my fantasies so I could imagine them with better detail, I stopped doing this long time ago because I can picture everything much better than I used to.

I'm 17 right now, at this point I doubt I'll ever stop daydreaming (which is great for me). I wish that someday my fantasies will come true, but I know that's never going to happen, and it makes me really depressed.

[The1andonlyAbber]

I also draw things out because I can't picture them very clearly. I'm 14, maybe my ability to picture things will also get better as I get older. Maybe then daydreaming will be less exhausting for me. One of the main problems my daydreams cause is they make me perpetually tired (and I usually daydream during the day, so I don't stay up late or all night daydreaming or anything, it's just that for some reason the daydreams use so much of my energy).