Dear All,

I am a third year PhD student. I had to temporarily withdraw from my PhD because of MDD. Due to stress and anxiety my MDD increased. As a result I became isolated and alone. I would sit in my room for hours on end until I couldn't keep up with the stress of the PhD and my MDD. Subsequently, I have become depressed and suicidal. Luckily, I have gone to seek help and after my first counselling session I started to search what was wrong with me. I have come across this site back in 2016 and the level of relief has been unmeasurable. I am not glad that you are all suffering from this, but I am glad I am not alone. 

I have been away from the course for almost 2 years and I am now going back for the first time in mid August to complete the remainder of my project. Now, I have realised that music and movies are triggers. However, I feel that anxiety and fear can also be triggers for me. I have used CBT and Mindfulness/Meditation to combat anxiety, but I am afraid if I go back to my course this will now come back.

Is anyone here in high pressured job/course who can advise me on how to combat/or live with MDD without letting it taking over? I have read some research papers on recent studies done in Israel and one of them concluded that we treat this as an addiction. The trouble is you can avoid alcohol, drugs etc.. by going to rehab and going cold Turkey. How can you treat MDD as an addiction when it's your thoughts coming to live? I guess the element of enjoyment is the addictive part, but what if you can't stop?

Please let me know how you guys are able to maintain your REAL lives while also maintaining your addictive daydream/fantasy. 

PS; I read in some areas antidepressants such as Sertraline/Zoloft helped some people daydream less. That was not the case for me. I was less anxious but my daydreams were there, that and a list of other nasty side effects.

Many thanks in advance for your replies,

Sahra

Views: 41

Reply to This

© 2024   Created by Valeria Franco.   Powered by

Badges  |  Report an Issue  |  Terms of Service

G-S8WJHKYMQH Real Time Web Analytics

Clicky