MD formed into light psychosis.

[LeAnn Marcum]

When I was in 8th grade, I had a fantasy prone personality. I would consume my daylight hours with daydreaming. When me and my first boyfriend broke up, I had major depression and I even attempted at burning my neighbors shed down. Then when I went to the fair with my friends, I met one of my classmates there. I was still really sad about my breakup, and she hugged me and made me feel better. She was my hero. That's when my daydreams started to wrap around her, that I would one day return the favor. My fantasy was to go to my father's house and stab myself in the stomach so that he would go to prison and wouldn't harass my mom anymore. That's when I started believing that it was going to come true. I felt like my fantasies were more real than reality, and I started to lose track of what was wrong and what wasn't. I attempted to get rid of our dog without my family knowing three times, and I started having thoughts that if I didn't I would eventually hurt or even kill her. I felt like my emotions were draining out from me. Then I found a knife in the laundry room, and brought it up to my torso and imagined stabbing myself with it. Later on, I was threatened of being arrested for stalking my hero. I was obsessed with her, and even though I dreamed about her, I would be terrified of her in real life. I did everything I could to avoid her. I would also become completely mute around my friends and go days with saying a single word, I would just follow them around in gym.

Has this happened to anyone else?

[M Hunter]

I'm not sure if this is psychosis. As someone who has suffered with psychosis for 8 years I can see some of the resemblance, the paranoia, the intrusive thoughts and so on, but I don't believe MD can develop into psychosis.

My MD and my psychosis are two separate issues. They effect one another but aren't the direct result of each other. I think sometimes we can delve very deep into our fantasies and become lost at times but psychosis is quite different. In my experience I've had voices telling me to hurt people to the point I nearly set fire to my school in order to save my family from pain which this voice was threatening to inflict. I've also got nice voices that help me which I'm thankful for. Also I physically assaulted my partner when they tried to tell me I didn't have super powers. 

For me I lived in a daydream world all my life and then something incredibly stressful for me triggered off my psychosis. I think that was inevitably going to happen to me though. I feel it's probably coded in my DNA somewhere. The same could be true for you but I haven't the ability to state that as truth.

Best of luck.

[LeAnn Marcum]

 You could be right. During that time, I wasn't officially diagnosed with it because they couldn't figure out what was wrong with me (I didn't tell them about the daydreams because I didn't know it was called MD back then) and that it was the source to me anxiety attacks, so they just prescribed me with anxiety medication. The anxiety was coming from a specific person (as mentioned in the description) and I nor anyone knew why. All I knew was that I had an extreme fear of her, and that in my daydreams she was my friend. I guess I just sunk so deep in it that I let some of my fears grow, and I was used to living in my own world, which made it hard for me to adapt to the real world.

M Hunter said:

I'm not sure if this is psychosis. As someone who has suffered with psychosis for 8 years I can see some of the resemblance, the paranoia, the intrusive thoughts and so on, but I don't believe MD can develop into psychosis.

My MD and my psychosis are two separate issues. They effect one another but aren't the direct result of each other. I think sometimes we can delve very deep into our fantasies and become lost at times but psychosis is quite different. In my experience I've had voices telling me to hurt people to the point I nearly set fire to my school in order to save my family from pain which this voice was threatening to inflict. I've also got nice voices that help me which I'm thankful for. Also I physically assaulted my partner when they tried to tell me I didn't have super powers. 

For me I lived in a daydream world all my life and then something incredibly stressful for me triggered off my psychosis. I think that was inevitably going to happen to me though. I feel it's probably coded in my DNA somewhere. The same could be true for you but I haven't the ability to state that as truth.

Best of luck.

[LeAnn Marcum]

 I think it was my intention to actually bring my daydreams to life that makes it difficult to tell if it was MD or not. Though, I did start daydreaming excessively before all of that happened, when I was 11 years old just about. This is something I did not mention in the description. If you haven't read in my other posts, I did explain that at one point during my MD phase that I wanted to actually make my fantasies happen. I didn't know how, and my fantasies were no where realistic. But you know, when you're addicted to something, you're at least a little bit blind from the truth. And as I sunk deeper and deeper into my daydreams and believing they were going to come true somehow, I began to lose my sights on the 'normal' view of reality. Like I was living in a dream almost.
 
 RexFeral said:

I think you have something else besides MDD. Like the previous poster, I don't believe MDD can develop into psychosise though I am sure people with severe mental illnesses and personality disorders can have a very rich fantasy life. MDD is different from that though.