Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
Hey, welcome to Wild Minds! Nice to see another new face. :D
Firstly, there is nothing wrong with you...I know that sounds kinda odd and cliché, but it's true. We've all been there and loads of us still have days when we're like "What the hell is wrong with me - why the hell did this happen to me - why is the bloody world so wrong!".
My advice? There might not be a cure or a quick fix solution, but talking to other MDers really helps. I tend to get edgy as well when I can't DD, but "checking in" with like minded people who really understand, gives me some stability and grounding. You don't have to hide anything, so you're free to share anything...we don't judge.
For now, if I were you, I'd just focus on getting comfortable in my own skin again and finding a balance with my MD. The other stuff you can sort out later, when you're up to dealing with it. There are some helpful suggestions and techniques on the site for gaining some ground on your DDing.
So join the chat (most active during European evening hours), read some of the forum and blog posts, maybe look through the research on the links page and just taking part in the conversation. We're a friendly group of "odd balls". ;-)
You've taken a massive step already. *Hug*
I can tell you it can certainly be beaten but it's a slow process, i've been at it since two years and I can say that now it's only a fourth of what it used to be. It's your journey, don't fret, give it time, don't obsess, look around the site, learn about it and you can change yourself. All the best!