Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
My name is James,47 years old , completely useless at technology but glad the younger guys have found this place to be . Where to begin ?, short version , traumatic childhood, some abuse, quickly convinced around 11 years old I was no good and pretty worthless
So I did what we here do , escape, into myself, my bedroom,my thoughts, one way ticket to St Elsewhere
Found a new toy , seemed I had enormous power, fearful of the real world, it just hurt me,
Elaborate scenarios that I could control, films , books , Tv fed this new monster voraciously, couldn’t do any of them without starting
Classic issues, faraway look , clicking to timed Dds , blinking, angry if disturbed, time set aside , highly planned, socially uncomfortable , sooooo would have advised against this if I had known then what I know now
Brought nothing but misery as only emotions really were in Dds , recent total heath related breakdown , total cataclysmic implosion due to health related fear
Working , but just barely holding it together as v busy work for NHS at this time
Cant access Dds , so truly nothing in my head but pain really
tired now , grateful to all , but late here as glad this exists as nothing ‘back in the day’ like here
Regards to all
Nice to meet you!!
im Maria Claudia, 25, happy to know more about you!
I just get in touch with this forum, and i feel really happy about it..even to read others experiences fills me with a belonging that i never felt before,
I always get confused by how to deal with my life, reality when i live the most in my bedroom daydreams that are so fullfiling and powerful.
I only feel a lil away from Dds when I have a lil bit of real life experience, but most of times they became fuel to more Dds, even more powerful and charming than before so i'm really happy to meet everyone here.
Thanks for your intro!