I’m not alone! - Just joined this site

[Rosandro]

Hello!

I have been struggling with MD pretty much my whole life. Joining this community is making me feel so much better, realising how I’m not alone! As a kid, I thought it was a simple play-pretend; I was creating characters, playing them, creating stories. I had my own world, with my own characters, would spend so much time in it, which was more than the other kids around me, but since I’m a creative mind, I thought it was normal. However, I grew up and the world never disappeared; it evolved, deepened, became more complex. For years, I thought I was childish, still playing kid’s games, and thought I would outgrow it. But I never did. During teenages, I started doing researches on Google, and found almost nothing at the time. Just one blog, one message somewhere of someone describing similar things. Then over time, I read about MD and to know it had a name, that it was an actual mechanism, not just being childish, changed my life. Today, I understand my mechanism a lot better, but that doesn’t seem to help to control it. I tried consulting, and the results were short termed. I think the hardest thing is that I know how detrimental it is in my life; I can lose hours in a day, and go to sleep when the sun gets out! but at the same time, it feels so good, it’s so addictive that I don’t want to stop either, even when I know the trouble it causes me.
I wanted to share my story, because I have never really got the chance to do so or to feel validated personally. I think this is why this blog is so great!

ps: my username, Rosandro, is the couple’s name of the two main characters in my story!