I Look More Eminent in My Dream Life

[Silver Swan]

I find this very hard to describe. I am realistically a person of fault in my waking life. I'm actually far from perfect and everybody sees it. I mean, my manners and habits need loads of improvement. The way I act and carry on around people, can really bother I'll make them think and stare hard at me. I am also on the silent side, so they almost chose not to like me, or even notice me. They've even gave me "stupid" labels. Well **I have Autism.**

Anyway, my fantasy life can take those facts away. I appear so eminent, smart, fine and beautiful in a very distinctive way. I have this refined accent and I honestly have no problem with talking and getting close to people. I have all sorts of romantic relationships with any guy who inspires me from movies. To be frank, I do NOT have Autism in my fantasies! I kind of got inspired by Clare Fraser in 'Outlander.' I actually wish that I was as smart, talented, good and witty as her. With my own fantasy 'persona,' I can achieve anything that I normally can't do in my reality. I am always traveling around and meeting all sort of people. I am strong, determined, spirited and unbeatable. Nobody in my MDD thinks that I have issues and can't do anything correctly, nor suspects that I have a personality problem.

I mean in real life, especially the way people are and how everybody's minds are made up by social media. Anybody can chose to not like you, or think something is weird and off about you. Whose in a perfect position out there, really?