Where wild minds come to rest
At what age did the MDD begin? How long did it last? What do you think caused it? What factors increased the severity? Please feel free to share your experience.
Personally, I am unsure of how my MDD began, but I think it most likely began from the tendency to create imaginary friends. That tendency was at first harmless, but later became compulsive.
Before this compulsive habit, my daydreams were non-maladaptive, benign, and simple. However, as I grew up, my daydreams expanded to become complex worlds. The daydreams contained their own complex cast of characters, setting, and storylines. In middle school, the MDD began to incorporate fantasies of better versions of myself, such as more popular or athletic versions of me.
Another thing that made my MDD go downhill was the desire to write a book. People told me that I had a great imagination and I was addicted to that high. Yes, I know, writing a book is a great outlet for MDD... but in my case, it WORSENED my MDD. (It's hard to explain and I don't feel like going into detail about it.) I wasted many years trying to write a book. Now that I'm older, I know that that is not want I want to do anymore. However the, the emotional attachments that I formed with my characters make it very difficult to let go.
Something else that propelled me into DD'ing was my loneliness. Throughout my teens, I was socially awkward in a painful way, and had a difficult time connecting to other students (especially boys.) My mother was also unable to connect with me on an emotional level. I remember that I would do grocery shopping or just any activity and tried to have fun with my emotionally distant mom, but I just couldn't do it. I also tried to join various clubs with other students but I was often left out and unable to make friends or have fun. I felt so bored, empty, and lonely that I created imaginary characters who could make the experiences more fun and intimate.
I used to create imaginary friends. I do remember talking to people in my head when i was younger, but i didn't think that was weird. I was a very lonely child, and i didn't have many stable relationships back then. My friends in real life didn't last long, so i resorted to creating them in my imagination. The rest of what you say i relate to as well.