Hi, hello

[Darek Krawczyński]

Hi

I'm 22 years old collage student, until last year I was doing pretty got in school and I had no problem with social situations. But since my second year started I feel some thing has changed, I've started to feel lonely even tho I'm around people. I stopped talking to people, I don't know why but instead of talking to people I play out the conversation in my mined. At first I would do that only when I was nervous/afraid of talking to other people but as time has pasted I've started to do it more often. Now I'm stuck in my own thoughts, like i'm a prisoner of my own mind. Instead of talking to people I just Daydreaming the conversation. It started with just talking to people but now i'm able to daydream a entire situation. At first I didn't think it was so bad because I still had a control over it, I even consider this as fun, I use to say "the best person i can talk to is my self" but it got really bead this year. I have started daydreaming in class, lectures, studding, reading, playing games and even when I went to hang out with my friends. My ability to focus is now almost non existent. I constantly keep talking to my self and it is only after a while that I'm aware of it. 

This Daydreaming business is horrible. for example I can compose a great speeches in my mind but I don't know what to say when a real person asks me the question I was thinking about, even tho I just was thinking about it and in my opinion I made some good points, but when it comes to saying my thoughts out loud I can't compose a sentence.

What scars me the most is that I use to be a very sharp minded person, with a quick reply fore every thing but now I don't really know what is going on around me, and If I want to "be in the moment" it takes a whole lot of my energy just to focus. I don't know what should I do. I know I have this problem but I don't know how to deal with it.

Unfortunately I run to alcohol and drugs. After only one beer I feel more in the moment the sober and the daydreams stop. That is great but I don't want to drink and do drugs all the time.

sorry for my English 

[Penguin]

Heya

The dreamed conversations occurs a lot for me as well, and I even consider them better than full-blown situational fantasies.

Can't really give any advice, but if you have been daydreaming for only a year I guess you are in a much better place to start fighting the DDs than many others :)