hi guys.

[dan dreamer]

hi guys,

I'm really happy I found this place. My story is similar to the other's that I've read. I started this when I was very young..as far as I know, I've always done it. Music has always been the trigger for me. Im 23 years old right now, and currently I sit in a rocking chair as I do it. I've noticed also that I make facial expressions when I become truly immersed in the daydreams. 

I don't really create a story or anything or make up characters. For me, I imagine myself as famous, in all different regards. Sometimes I'm an artist, musician, photographer, author, actor, etc. It's more of a fantasy of what I wish I was.

I didn't have an unfortunate childhood like many of the posters. Quite the opposite actually. Both of my parents are extremely loving, I was never abused by anyone, and though we were by no means rich, I would say I was even a little spoiled as a child and certainly have no reasons to complain about my upbringing. 

I have an overwhelming feeling however that I have no skills or talents. I've been in college for over 4 years now. I got an Associate's degree from a local community college that was supposed to prepare me for a job, but felt I didn't learn much at all. So I continued on to another school to work towards a Bachelor's, which will take me another year and a half at least. I feel that I know almost nothing about the field in which I plan to enter, even though my grades have all been A's and B's, and feel like I have no other abilities either. I pretty much just feel lost and worry about my future. I'm always anxious and feel that I have no time to do anything, ever. When I do have free time, I usually spend it sitting home, wishing I could do something to help my future, but I don't know where to start and usually end up moping around home all day. I absolutely loathe my part time job and thinking about it makes me miserable. It took me a long time to realize how upset all of this was making me, and recently it has affected my only close relationship. Essentially, I think this is the reason why I still resort to the daydreaming. It makes me feel like I'm not so useless. I can control it, it's not like I walk around and all of a sudden start daydreaming. It only happens when I have my headphones on, or when I drive. But with the increasing feeling of uselessness, it gets harder to avoid the daydreaming.

 

I'm just really glad that other people are like me, because for pretty much my whole life I've just thought I was strange and never told anybody about this.