Hi

[Lauren]

So I saw that article on Yahoo as well, and it grabbed me, because for YEARS I've wanted a name for this, and to see if other people do it as well. This is absolutely fascinating to me and I'm so glad I can FINALLY express this.

Personally, my daydreaming has never been a bad thing. I'm in college, I have a handful of friends that I keep up with, and I have a boyfriend of two years. I'm responsible and I get things done. there is a time and place for my daydreaming.

My fantasy began out of a dream when I was 14, and now I'm 21. Two celebrities are the main characters, then there's an ideal version of myself, and then other people who are in my real life, some modified, some not. The personalities of the three main characters (me, idealized, and the two celebs) are literally all me in reality. I divided my own personality into three. I feel strong love toward the two, and that's honestly like, loving myself. The love is a mix between attraction of the actual celebs, and love for the personalities, which are mine, just divided. That's kind of conveluted, but I'm sure you get it.

I apply what happens in my real life to the fantasy, and if something from my real life doesn't fit, I don't include it.

I have been doing this since I was a child, in one form or another. I do remember my old fantasies, and I think they arose, or this whole thing arose, out of being an only child. My parents are dysfunctional, and they really did isolate me as a kid, and I had strong desires to not be isolated. I guess the fantasy worlds have always been a defense mechanism.

I'm not saying to go out and do this, but personally, using marijuana enhances the daydreaming, and that's why I smoke it occasionally. I refuse to smoke it with other people , because then there would be no point.