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Does anyone else have a ''main character'' other than yourself?

Basically, my maladaptive daydreams don't revolve around me. They revolve around another character who is most essentially me, except he is male and a different ethnicity. I haven't opened up to an expert about this but I believe that this may have been caused by childhood trauma and dissociation, which makes it difficult for me to imagine myself 

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Why do those with md notvwant to talk about it with others outside this forum?
(Filly) It feels profoundly silly and embarrassing. For me, at least. Though, for others, I’d wager that discussing MD would be the equivalent of exposing their most prized values and deepest emotional wounds. MDers also generally (and sometimes accurately, unfortunately) fear either being judged and ridiculed or not taken seriously enough when they try to explain themselves face-to-face to people that don’t do it and have never heard of it.

I have often tried to seperate myself from the charachter in my head by calling her something else. Thinking this is more heatlhy or normal, (which it is not.) I need a certain amount of realism for the fantasy to work. If I daydream about dating an actor, he can't be married or have a girlfriend. OR I have to go through a process of putting him through a divorce/ breakup before I start pretend dating him. It's so weird.

Marcy
I spent five days with my md guy. He drives a truck long distance and i went across country with him. I
noticed that he goes in and out and when i talk to him about others with md and how they feel he just listens
Ive also noticed different personalities too. And triggers.
He says he cant make the voices stop yet when he exercises they are subdued. When driving he will laugh out loud and jabber away.
I know he has a hero self but thats
About it.
I tell him all the time he is special and amazing to think in such dimensions.
Je retains minute facts but forgets other things and sometimes im not sure who i am talking too.

These discussions help me to help him
Thank you
He told me yesterday that the md is a curse .
Maybe i can get him to register on this site.so he knows he is not alone.
I got him on vitamins including fish oil etc and emphasize he needs to exercise a lot.
His sister suffers from depression and his mom is pretty nuts and very difficult so there is definitely a generic condition going on too.
I understand the reluctance to share his hero self.i hear little tidbidts sometimes.
You are all very helpful.
Stay busy is my advise and active.

I have about 10 different "main characters" that I have separate story lines for. I have named one after myself, however egotistical that sounds, but she's not really me. All of my characters are the ideal. I find it very difficult to give them flaws because in my mind, they're supposed to be the best that could possibly exist, and it hurts because I know that there's no one in real life that's like that. It's also hard for me to share my stories because I feel like they're an important part of me, but my mom (who's trying to help me through this) says that I need to let them all go...


I used to have a "main character" that was an alternative of myself. She had a very refined accent and was attractive. She was smart, talented, bold and very interesting. She had no problems with finding new relationships, but I did.

I even tried to talk just like her in real live public, but people thought I was British, and others thought I had no sensor of humor. My voice had a deep serious tone with slurs here and there.

Anyway, I stopped daydreaming that much, so I'm waking up to me. It is so embarrassing looking back at how much I lived in my head and how often my mind was taken over by this character, and so many others.


I used to have a "main character" that was an alternative of myself. She had a very refined accent and was attractive. She was smart, talented, bold and very interesting. She had no problems with finding new relationships, but I did.

I even tried to talk just like her in real live public, but people thought I was British, and others thought I had no sensor of humor. My voice had a deep serious tone with slurs here and there.

Anyway, I stopped daydreaming that much, so I'm waking up to me. It is so embarrassing looking back at how much I lived in my head and how often my mind was taken over by this character, and so many others.

I used to get manipulated at school and work. My family and peers used to think I was deaf, because I couldn't hear their words.

I have resorted to writing everything down it makes me feel better about myself.
I have a main character (in the book I write) she is essentially me on paper but in the novel(which is Sci fi kind of I think) has an ability which is stronger than others.
It’s funny that when I read what I have written back it is essentially my life in a fictional story if you can understand that, men belittle her, she feels strong but is unable to show that strength (this like that)
It’s actually freaky when you write it down and read it back, you see things you don’t realize your releasing from your memory.

I had to see this just to clarify what you meant by other than yourself. Cause I didn't know if it meant in your daydreams you were someone else or there was another main character along side you...Not really sure why I thought that. But honestly I don't recall ever being me in my daydreams, granted that I don't remember a lot very well from far back, but the ones I do remember I was someone else. Many times I've been an already established fictional character, other times a sort of canon character which was really just a mix of my own ideas and a canon character, but most of the time a character I created, and while many of them vary in traits there are a couple things that have been consistent, such as having a devoted lover, being attractive, and physically strong, you know things you generally want. Of course the same daydreams would also be REALLY dark, but that's another story. However, I actually had DID which just adds another really complicated layer. 

Yeah, I think is a good tactic write your MD and read it later, it's kinda funny and silly how imagination works. lol

Jane said:

I have resorted to writing everything down it makes me feel better about myself.
I have a main character (in the book I write) she is essentially me on paper but in the novel(which is Sci fi kind of I think) has an ability which is stronger than others.
It’s funny that when I read what I have written back it is essentially my life in a fictional story if you can understand that, men belittle her, she feels strong but is unable to show that strength (this like that)
It’s actually freaky when you write it down and read it back, you see things you don’t realize your releasing from your memory.

The main character of mine is also a self-insert, perfect version of me but he also has a clone (I know, it’s crazy) who I sometimes create a whole other story for him but my brain can never stick to it.

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