Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
I was reading more about MD and I found a list of possible treatments. When I was reading it, I suddenly realised, I don't WANT to treat my MD, I want to keep my daydreams.
Does anyone else want to keep on daydreaming, even though it has negative points?
I mean, MD has made everyone think I'm weird (I'm a pacer, I would walk round the playground daydreaming and not play with kids my age [when I was 7, I've learnt not to pace at school] so I could carry on with my daydreams) but I want to keep daydreaming, it feels neccessary, I can't even lie in bed for 5 minutes without daydreaming, I have to daydream so I can lie in the bed and sleep.
Also, does anyone else feel like daydreaming is all a big pretend game? I'm not saying there's anything wrong with it - anyway I'd be a hypocrite if I did - but am I the only one who feels like this about daydreaming?
I feel that my daydreaming is really stupid and immature, but i can't imagine life without it. I am scared of a life without it. In my make believe world i have set up an end date, my 18th Birthday (i' 16 now). This was to try and encourage me to stop, but i am terrified of doing so.
Is it a proper addiction?
The mere thought of losing my daydreams makes me scared! My characters are so real to me it would feel like i was abandoning them. Also, if i were "cured" of MD there would definietly be and empty hole in my heart. i wouldnt know what to do with my mornings when im despereately trying to avoid my sister or at night when im laying in my bed, But most of all i would become completely frantic if something stressful or upsetting thing came into my life because i wouldnt have a clue how to deal with. My daydreams have always been an outlet for me and so if i lose that i lose part of myself. As to getting myself cured, from my perspective now it seems impossible due to the fact that i wouldnt allow it. Maybe with some intense therapy intense therapy i could learn to..... live W/O it.... possibly.
I have actually been struggling to get rid of this habit for very long. Only recently after joining this forum have i come to l0ok at this habit as a good thing,something i should not do away with. I have been doing meditation for years but not very regularly and hence never got rid of the habit. I always was looking for perfect control of the mind. This led to waste enormous amount of time, perhaps because habit of mine from childhood comes to atleast 15-16 years will not go away so easily. Also it is a part of me now so I should look at the good side of it and see how I can make good use of this habit. I am a daydreamer and I have always been. Doing away with it or abandoning it will mean I abandon who i am and abandon things i am good at. That makes no sense. This reflection has been possible only after coming to this forum though where i came across the good things about this habit and which i completely overlooked. Doing away with this habit will be equivalent to starting life afresh which is definitely not the right thing to do. I had been trying to do this thing for long and have hence ended up very confused and depressed lately.
I have been a daydreamer and will always(want to) be,I should see how I can make good use of this habit and do good things while i am alive.
i don't want to get rid of mine either, but i suppose the treatment would interest people who actually do have a problem with it and often can't stop or the ones that use it to escape something bad that has happened to them