Do I have MDD ?

[Silencer]

Hello to the wild minds community. Do I also have MDD ? Since I was a kid, I was a dreamer. My nickname in a lot of places was something  with dreamer. I was reading a lot of books. I remember that then I was going to sleep, I was thinking how I am flying and other stuff. It was awesome, sometime I would wake up smiling.

I was reading a lot of books. After that we got a lot of TV stations, so I could watch day after day various cartoons. They where better fantasy compared to books... There was a period when I was skipping school, with months, I was just sitting home, watching cartoons, none of my parents knew that. After that - PC games, especially World of Warcraft, man, this where the best, why reading or watching when you can take part in the fantasy ??

At home there was only quarrel and screams... World of Warcraft was my ideal word. Screw real world, I'm going into mine own. I'm a game addict.

Right now, when I'm going on the streets, I'm not really dreaming, I'm just going with my mind somewhere, I am thinking of something while listening to music, but I don't know what I am thinking off... Just random thoughts going through my mind. Sometime ideas depending on the music. Sometime I had friends that told me that I was walking right in front of them, looking in their eyes, and not saying a word, but I just didn't see them, when I'm in depression I'm totally lost to this world, I look but I don't see. I can't concentrate. I worked as a programmer, I started learning arts, then some music, then again something else, I can't just do something because I get bored. I'm working 3 to 6 months, then I drop it, and get to smthing else. I worked as an programmer, then network admin, then designer, now I'm searching  again for work. I'm 26 and I don't know what I want.

But I have the same opinion: This world sux, it's boring, it's uninteresting. I had my friends that got me out into the world, now all of them left and are married, and the only thing left for me are games and books, real world sux, and I can't get back into it. I don't see a reason.

Oh, and I'm an antisexual, so I'm kind of alone, real world based on sex, is disgusting, I'm am also disgusting because I have those thoughts.

So that's all. Sorry for all that text, can someone tell me what it's with me ?