Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
I was diagnosed with Clinical Depression, and suffer from social anxiety as well, in the past few years. I came across maladaptive daydreaming, when I was searching for anything that resembled this curious habit I had just acquired - pacing around my room while listening to my iPod, and imagining bright conversations with people I might never really talk to (either because of social anxiety, or they just weren't around). It was/is extremely addicting. I could BE the best I can, and people could see it. I was not misunderstood, I was happy, I was popular. I could say I spend at least an hour each day simply imagining conversation in my head. I realize this isn't exactly as severe as many describe their fantasies, but many of these individuals have been through horrible things in life - such as trauma or abuse. I, fortunately, have never been a victim of that, and I so I do not understand why I should have Depression, or obsessive daydreaming - or anxiety. It is probably due to stress, but the whole thing still doesn't make sense. Sometimes, I just imagine having a conversation with "no one in particular" - just as if I have an audience. I in fact, go into my restroom, and daydream some time (usually I am pacing or, dancing, or something like that), and my parents have noticed that that's really odd. Also, even though I wake up many mornings at about 4 to do school work, I end up daydreaming for atleast an hour.
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MD is not an officially recognized condition. Currently, people just make it whatever they want it to be. Some folks are studying excessive daydreaming and may come up with a method of screening for it.
The following is a link to a current study:
It's not necessarily caused by anything - I daydreamed a bit when I was younger, and around y8/9 it got worse, and worse, and then after the quakes (which weren't traumatic, just a pain in the arse) it got a bunch worse and it still seems to be getting worse.
Also, something I saw the other day, I can't remember the exact wording, but basically, it says that 'depression is a mental disorder. It doesn't care who I am, wealthy/poor I am, how my education has been, what colour my bloody skin is, it's a disorder, and it doesn't discriminate'
So yeah, not everyone gets depression for any particular reason. Just thought I'd add that.