Are my side effects normal?

[DZJX]

Ok so i just wanted to get this out there to be honest, ive had this since May 2008 just before my 16th birthday, i remember the time i created my other world well. so ive always just thought i was a bit insane and that im the only one who does it, and i stumbled upon this by accident but im so glad i did, not only am i relieved it has a name, but that hundreds, maybe thousands of other people do it too. ive been suffering also with depression since late 2008 also and i honestly think that this is to blame. basically the side effects it gives me are that i loose focus very easy when in class and it had become a problem because not only that but i can never get any work done at home, it seems to have made me unmotivated, IE nothing in this world is worth much when my other world is so perfect. i think its made me emotionally detached and gives me a numb feeling like im just going through the motions not really feeling it, i dont have any kick to get out of bed at all, i think that over the years it has sedated me into a state of nothing really bothering me too much, its quite dangerous to be honest, the other day i was walking down the road and i had to cross, and i was so deep in my thoughts i just walked out on the road without looking and a car came speeding past beeping and just missed me, but the scary thing is, is that it didnt make me jump or i didnt run to the pathway i just walked at the same speed and i didnt get any adrenaline or anything because i was so far in my other world, i knew the car was there but it just didnt bother me. now does this sound normal to any of you? my head is just constantly elsewhere i even daydream about little things now, like you wouldnt believe how many times today i have daydreamed about posting this post on here and what it will say and what reactions i might get. weird right?

Just on a side note, i would be devastated if anyone found out about it, i dont see how they would, unless they saw my browser history and this website, but no i would hate anybody knowing about it, nobody would unsderstand, how would you feel if people found out?

 

 

[Rachel S]

It sounds like you're daydreaming to avoid your problems. You clearly have depression and it's putting you in harm's way, like with the car. Have you been to the doctor?