A socially challenging life

[Silver Swan]

I had several people react so hard on me and call me a hostile little bitch, well, I have autism spectrum disorder and verbal dyslexia, so it makes me look unfriendly and dumb on the outside. I've had people of any age just overreact, simply because I didn't talk so much, make eye contact, not smile enough...ect. Every time, I used to feel so bad, even though, I couldn't do much about it — that's my brain. I've even been remarkably treated differently and dis-respectably for that very reason.

Well, I used my alternate daydream worlds to get away from my hell. However, my peers and other people began to notice my daydreaming ways, and never took it kindly. In fact, they reacted badly towards my tendencies to wonder away, especially when I made 'faces' and didn't listen up. Apparently, they didn't find anything normal about me, and even decided to avoid me. Seeing I had trouble making a good circle of friends, it was hard to make contacts, and when school was over, everybody moved on with their own lives. I did try to fit in in College, but a number of students kind of sensed things about me too.

So, for eight years since college, I've been freelancing at home, but I feel eerily withdrawn from socialization. Any friend I've ever had moved away to other parts in the world — same with all my peers. So, It makes me feel abandoned. Regards, I recently put my excessive daydreaming to a stop, as I don't want the rest of my future to look dissappointing as well.