The addiction of mine

[Mani]

It feels kind of assuring that I see people having the same life style and the same mindset as mine.
You see because this is my first post here so I'd like to share with you the basic of my maladaptive daydream.
It all started from when I was 11 years old.
I remember there was this girl I just liked to talk to but I was too shy to approach. So I didn't and that got me through a lot of anxiety.
And there I was, finding myself daydreaming hours a day and after a while it became almost impossible to give up.
From that time, I'm perfectly immersed in my daydreams.
I usually broadcast my daydreams by listening to some specific music becuse this way I can daydream easiers and it's more enjoyable
So nowaday the content of my daydreams are like this :
1- Making fake scenarios about my fav girl, talking to her, kissing her, watching scary movies together and all that.
2 - making fake scenarios about me having wonderful and even supernatural powers and showing these unbelievable powers to my friends and classmates at college and my fav girls. They would wonder how unique I am. There is not and has not been anyone like me. I'm just unique and unbelievable.
To make you come to grips with it more I'd like to give you an example of my daydreams :
I'm at college at the classroome with the professor and all the other students sitting, looking at me becuse I want to present something.
There are some papers in my hands about this presentation and everybody is waiting for me to start as usual.
But I start to confidently tearing all the papers apart. This way I get all the attention. Then I'd say : " no today Im not here to present anything. Im here to show you my true identity. In my whole life I never intended to do that. But as life's become boring so today is the day"
Then I start showing them my true powers including : waking the dead and creating human beings of my own as some kind of god.
And then I explain that I have these powers because I'm the son of lucifer
Of course I look like a human being because my mother is just a human although she was an amazing witch...

And yes here it ends.
Of course I had to drop off some details but I think you got all the point as you are daydreamers yourself.
The thing that satisfies my mind and has addicted me about these daydreams is that people are wondering about me being so perfect and unique and unbelievable.
People are shocked.
And this makes me feel perfect.
Although I do admit how awful I feel about this addiction of mine.
I feel terrible because it doesn't make any positive change in my life and it just makes everything worse.
I wish I could give it in but I just can't.
If you feel the same and you are somehow the same, I would appreciate your comments and advice
Thank you for your time
Mani

[Thay]

Dear Mani, I totally understand what you are feeling and I have the same thing. I understood that music is a trigger for me to start daydreaming, so I deleted all the music apps of my phone. I realized that I have so many frustations because of daydreaming, for creating this "perfect life" that doesnt match with reality. So... I'm still in the begging of the process, I've been watching some youtube videos of people talking about that and to be honest, I'm dealing it as an addiction. So, as an addiction, my mind and body don't want to let go so I've trying to get rid of some "triggers" that makes me daydream. Music, trying to sleep better and wake up with the alarm (because often I spent like 1 hour at least just laying at my bed and daydreaming), and now I'm trying to focus on studying mind, body and healthy style to change it. It's so difficult, like today I stared to daydreaming after 5 days without, but I quickly changed it to a study video, changed my attention you know? 

To be honest, thank u for sharing it all because it makes me feel like "im not crazy" and more people do it. At the beggining I though I was the "only one". Thank you for sharing and hope you get better!!

[Deep blue]

First of all, it takes a lot of courage to say all of this out loud. You are a great person. 

Secondly, I have a speculation that all of this show off stems from childhood neglect. Or some kind of neglect in life. Which has hurt the mind deeply. And now it wants as much of attention as possible. And is ready to do anything to get it.

This explains your over the top imaginations. The superpower part is used for shock value. Being ignored and neglected makes us feel hurt. So how about shocking people by our greatness and grab their attention. 

This can also be observed as jealousy. Being jealous of someone because they get all the attention in class or home. And wanting to be in their place

But it's just a speculation. 

[Kave]

Dear fellow countryman, there is no problem, you are not alone, I know the situation is difficult, but I want you to be rational and trust in God.