A Rambling Confession

[Dylan]

This is my first post on this site and frankly I was amazed that there are so few websites to share on, even while a child dreams (either at night or day) were seen as too personal to talk about and were never mention, so it's only recently that I realized that I'm the only person in my friendship group whose mind still wanders like that. This discovery came from a friend asking why I've been spacing out so often recently which caused me to question the impact my daydreams are having on my everyday life, I've always had this idealized version of myself in my mind and strove to achieve that state pushing both physically and mentally but now while working for a career that my other self would view as being simply tedious I find myself struggling to focus and losing my concentration to imagined activities more and more often. Therefore, I decided it was necessary to find some form of outlet to speak about this and get it off my chest so to speak before I find myself a few more years down the line without anyone even knowing how much I struggle to focus and at times even differentiate between the me that is real and the me that started as the more confident ideal of a rather introverted teenager/young adult.

I think I'll leave my first post there before it gets too rambling and just end with saying that it's nice to know that I'm not the only one for anyone who decides to take the time to read this.