obedience to the will of God

[zar larvin]

i started having this disorder at a tender age of 5 years old..i dreamed that I was somebody else beautiful, gorgeous and popular that everyone else envy..i lost track of time and i am now 26 years old when I realized I still have this disorder...it is sickening...sleeping, dreaming I'm somebody else I am not...creating a beautiful fairy tale all in my head..every time I would feel bad about myself or the situation, I would lie down and daydream, and whatever stupid scenarios I created in my head would make me feel better...But God was so gracious to me that one day...HE talked to me.. and asked me to stop it...these are the things I've realized and I hope that this WILL help others too..

 

1. I'm lazy. I was so lazy to work hard to become the person I want to be that I took it on the easiest way possible...to day dream..but face it, every after daydreaming session..there's always guilt and pain that overwhelms you becasue you know you wasted time and energy dreaming of things which were never true. .

2. I'm a coward.Becasue I refuse to face the reality that I hated myself and I don't like myself and I want to become soemone else. 

3. Im stupid. Becasue  I had recognized this dilemma that I refuse to face the reality that I hated myself and I don't like myself and I want to become soemone else-----yet I didnt do something about it....

4. I refuse to obey the will of God for my life...God wants me to become someone else I am not and I don't have the strength to accept it...

 

let's take for example a very prominent person that I think everyone knows her...britney spears..

she's very popular and rich..a legend and a superstar..she was able to maximize the talents God has given her..let's face it, she wants to have a better voice right? cos she's a singer...but she didn't stay at home, slept and daydream..she worked on the other talents that God has given her which is dancing..her voice is not really exceptional, it's quite good actually but not enough maybe for an exceptional singer. she was contented with it and worked hard on other areas which she knows she can still improve just so she can achieve her dream to be a good artist and a performer..she was contented with the voice God has given her, and instead worked hard..Thus God is happy with her and made her a music legend..even if other people criticize her vocal prowess and that she lipsynchs, she still continued to hold on to her dream because she knows it's the only way that she can be happy..thus she don't need to day dream at all..she is living her dream...

 

i hope we will have the courage to work hard and become the person we always wanted to be...so that our happiness doesn't only come when we close our eyes or when we hear music..we deserve to be happy in the real world...what would you do if you  actually die today and realize within you last breath that you never really was happy with your life, you didn't live your life to the fullest, and that in almost all instances that you felt happy, they were actually lies and created within your head?...

 

my goal in life right now..is TO NEVER DAYDREAM again...even IF I SPENT THE REST OF MY LIFE WORKING HARD AND SLEEPING ONLY TWO HOURS EVERY NIGHT WHILE WORKING FOR MY DREAMS..I WOULD GLADLY AND HAPPILY DO IT..BECAUSE i believe i deserve to be happy IN THE REAL WOLRD...IF GOD ALLOWED BRITNEY SPEARS TO BECOME THE PERSON SHE ALWAYS WANTED TO BE..there's no reason God wouldn't do the same to me....i've realized that maybe the reason I have always wanted to be someone else is because i'm meant to be a better and greater person than I am now...  

 

I am a doctor..I am physician and in seven years or so I would become a cardiologist because that's what I have always wanted...I am willing to work hard, persevere and sacrifice for my dream, even if I hardly eat or sleep..so that I can be happy in the real world and I can truly feel that others will be happy for me too..i will also exercise every day so that I can have the body that I have always dreamed of having.....

 

why would i do all of  this? because I'm sick of daydreaming....of pretending to be someone else....i love myself and I believe i deserve better....what is real  happiness ? TO LIVE and be happy IN THE REAL WORLD....

[Cristy Vite]

you know, that's the same problem i always had: laziness. i'm so lazy, i don't work or study because i don't like to do anything. i finished my career but i don't want to work because i'm lazy, i don't know how to do it, i hate to work and make efforts i hate it, since i was born i was lazy, i prefered to sleep rather than being  in a party or in school, and i don't know how to like the pain that produce to make an effort, but i really want to have a normal life, every time i try to do something and do it for a long time, i always fail, i do it for a few days and then i stop doing it.

[Taylor]

I believe God saved me from daydreaming.  About a year ago I was at the point where i couldnt stop daydreaming.  I daydreamed 24/7 and did not realise it was ruining my life, but God helped me to see the severity of the situation.  This was before i knew the condition had a name and other people struggled with it.  i know God had a reason for giving me MD.  I fully believe Psalm 139:14 "I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well."  its not that I think God made a mistake and I got MD, or that He made me wrong, I dont know why He gave me this condition.  I know he loves me whether im daydreaming or not but when im daydreaming all i think about is myself and the FAKE people i made up.  HOW CAN I SERVE GOD IF ALL MY TIME AND ATTENTION ARE ON PRETEND THINGS????  God helped me realise this and now with Gods help I have stopped daydreaming.   The temptation of entering the world I made in my mind is still there.  i doubt it will ever leave but I believe God is and always will help me stay in reality so i can do what God wants me to do. 

[roxanne]

I believe God loves me just the way I am.