My / yours lifestory?

[Betty]

Hey

I'm new here. Joined this site because I have MD (surprise? :b). I’ve been reading some of the posts and would like to write something myself, but I don’t really know what to write. Soeh … I guess I’ll tell a bit about myself?

Maybe it would be interesting to see if any of you have had the same “lifestyle” as me or what you call it.

When I was a child and began in school I didn’t get many friends and was always an outsider. When we were playing games I always got chosen last and so on (you’ve heard stories like that before).

I have always liked animals and have had a lot of them (maybe because I didn’t have so many friends).

My DD however didn’t start before I was about 14. I had started to DD a bit when I was bored (which was often because I wasn’t social) and then it really got kick-started because I got sick and lay in bed for about 3 week. At the same time I got some kind of break-down and refused to go to school and just stayed at home. My mother didn’t know what to do with me, so I was forced to go to therapy. The psychologists did some tests on me and came to the conclusion that I had a depression + a mild version of Asperger.

No one ever mentioned MD … so I didn’t know that existed until about an year ago.

Since then my life has had its ups and downs. I’ve spent most of the time with my pets (anything from fishes to horses). I’m not good at making friends with people (probably caused both by my Asperger and MD).

Last summer however I got bored so I decided to try to work on my education. I’ve worked really hard now and get the best grades in class (yaay). My DD sometimes is a problem both in class and regarding homework but I try my best.

I think my DD is worst when I’m stressed. And I often stress myself because I think a lot about everything (I wish I could turn my brain off sometimes). I also have trouble to sleep – when I lay in bed, my brain just goes crazy both with thoughts and DD – both before I fall asleep and as soon as I wake up – and sometimes I even wake up in the middle of the night and can’t fall asleep again.

Sorry this got so long … anything you recognize? (:

[Elizabeth Moore]

I've always DDed, and I haven't had problems making friends, although fitting in with friends has been another matter entirely :P I don't have Asperger's, although I think I'm certainly that way inclined.

I envy you your ability to stave off boredom through work - I can only avoid DDing through impulsive actions like eating and surfing the internet, so I haven't been able to do homework AT ALL for several months. My DD also seems to worsen when I'm stressed, which is unfortunate as this is the time when I most need to stay in the real world. The sleeping problems I also share - there's little point going to bed earlier, as I'll just wake up at four o'clock in the morning and DD for 1-2 hours

[taffle]

I have some symptoms of Asperger's so it could be mild like yours. I also don't have many friends. I think animals can be more loyal and friendlier than humans. At least they won't lie to you, go behind your back and betray you. Humans can be cunning and devious. DD also keeps me awake for a period of time after I go to bed.

[Natalie]

While reading this I was amazed at how many of the things you said about yourself parallel aspects of my own life. Like you I did not do much with friends in my childhood, with the exception of my sister. I have always had a love for animals and spent a lot of time with my pets (two cats, a hedgehog, and several horses). In my early childhood I even daydreamed about pets, imagining stuffed animals to be real and inventing stories about them.  I have always had imaginative/daydreaming tendencies, but my daydreaming took on maladaptive proportions when I was 13, roughly around the same time you started to DD. Also like you, MD has made school more difficult for me, especially writing assignments which I cannot do while DDing, but I have been able to succeed by working hard to focus. Finally, DDing also often keeps me awake at night and makes it difficult for me to get out of bed in the morning.