Where wild minds come to rest
Hi everyone, I just want to say thank you to all of you. I've spent the last nearly 20 years feeling confused but what I had always wondered is, is anyone else out there like me? Anyone else that does what I do? I stumbled upon maladaptive daydreaming on complete accident after years of searching for something... Anything. And there it was. I started crying instantly when I read someone's story that struck so close to home for me. As with many things in life like this, everyones experience is different but all together share similarities. So I would like to hear from people who might specifically identify with my experience. I started when I was a child. I pace and I cannot satisfy my daydream urge without pacing. I also have a specific item I have to have. It (embarrassingly) is an old magic wand from a kit from Christmas one year. I've always had it and it is absolutely necessary. I also always speak dialogue out loud.
This was usually all passed off as being imaginative when I was little so my family thought nothing of it but as I became self aware I started to keep it to private spaces like my room or a place people couldn't see or hear me because I felt like in someway it was not normal. I am 24 now and it is a built in part of my life, consuming many hours a day.
I am curious if anyone has shared some of my same experiences and methods. I am beyond amazed that this community exists. I literally dreamed of something like this existing and I'd one day meet someone that does this. So thank you, all of you for being brave to share your stories, it has profoundly changed my life and how I perceive myself in the world; not alone. :)