My first post!! :)

[Abbey]

Hi everyone. I'm Abbey, I finally decided to join!! Yay! (I'm the girl in the picture on the right, and that's my sister on the left) I guess I'll just keep that picture for now, until I can successfully take a selfie lol. I hope to meet lots of friends, and try to stay active on here as much as I can.

Anyways, I first researched about this probably back in the summer when I started to notice there was something wrong with my behavior. I wasn't sure what it was, but I started to think that what I was doing wasn't exactly normal. I thought there had to be a name for it. So, when I started researching about daydreaming, I came across maladaptive daydreaming, and right away I knew I had it. I have almost all the symptoms - pacing back and forth, headphones blaring, living in a different world, not feeling like I'm really here when I do it, constant urges to do it, things like that. 

I believe this is something I've had since I was a child. I have always been extremely imaginative, especially with music. Growing up, I always daydreamed and zoned out more than the average person. I still do that now, usually in school a lot when I'm not able to maladaptive daydream. Music is a huge trigger for me. I remember back as a child, I used to maladaptive daydream, I just didn't realize it. But it was never to a point where it was an addiction, it was nothing to be concerned about. I barely remember now.

But now that I'm a teenager, it seems like it's something I use just to escape, because I'm not happy with my life, to cure my bordem (I'm bored almost all the time), and to relieve my major depression and anxiety.

I'm currently seeing a therapist (although I don't really like it, or feel she's helping), and my psychiatrist appointment is coming up in January, so I will get to actually be diagnosed with major depression and anxiety. I will also find out whether there is something else wrong with me, maybe something that also might be causing me to do this. (Although I kinda doubt it, I don't think I have ADHD or OCD, but you never know)

I have so much more I want to talk about. But I'm just gonna leave it at this for now!

Hope to talk to you all soon.