Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
My MDD goes into cycles and I hit a huge one this month - due to a REALLY STUPID question: Doctor Who? I mean, REALLY??? Of all the problems of life I need to solve that particular one shouldn't be a high priority, you think? But it seems like my mind doesn't care - it's a puzzle it just couldn't let go, regardless of sleep deprivation, important life activities, whatever. It really ticked me off, but I couldn't stop until I figured it out. I would lie in bed all night awake, going through each episode, sometimes line by line looking for clues then drag myself up at 4 A.M. to open the shop. That can't be normal or healthy!
But day after day, I'm nearly sleep walking through my life because my brain is thinking stuff like: "The oncoming storm to his enemies....Like fire and burns throughout eternity.....(firestorm?) a title that holds a secret....the oldest question in the universe hidden in plain sight...Capt Jack rebuilds the institute in the doctors honor...In the old series someone called his theta sigma (nope it was a nickname) John Smith is his alias (nobody uses an their real name for an alias) The doctor is a title...secret in title...firestorm...forest fire...torched wood...anagram Doctor Who...Torchwood. Oh wait that's a Dr Who spinoff series...perfect red herring though...hidden in plain sight..Yep - His real name is Torchwood.
I have no idea what triggered it, unless it was just my mind trying to avoid thinking about other, more painful stuff - I spent the holidays thinking about my older brother whom I lost recently and I cried so much I felt like I was going to die too. So maybe it was just my brain trying to derail the grief...