MD has taken over my life without my realizing it. I need control and positive anything back!

[Stace]

This is my 1st post. Pretty much all of my DD include people that have touched my life in some way. They usually involve people that are important to me or those that have passed away. My DD's are very elaborate and often dark, even apocalyptic.  If the fantasy's are not negative in nature, they usually involve my adult life. The only positive DD's I seem to have are romantic in nature and few and far between. My brain never shuts down, my memory is excellent and I remember much of anything I've read, etc... (not always a good thing, because some memories are haunting in nature). Since I don't work, I have too much free time for my mind to wander.

In the last 5 years I've had many health problems and surgeries that have left me on permanent disability.  I also recently divorced after a 14 year marriage.

I never heard of MD until today, but it describes at least the last 3 decades of my life. It effects my life greatly. I have lost my ability to focus and concentrate. Once prompt, I now procrastinate and am always behind it feels life. Everything feels like a struggle and life has been simply about survival for the last 18 months. My patience is shot as well.

I need to start living and enjoying life before I do lose the few positives I have left.

 

[stranger in a strange land]

I feel you. I spent over a year not doing anything but daydreaming. It was when I finished with school last summer and didn't make it to preceed to university. So, I decided to take a year off. Although I doubt my MD wouldn't get worse if I went to school just then. I noticed my daydreaming was getting more uncontrollable even when I was busy. This year I got accepted and I start in October. Hope I will be able to fall back into this cycle.

I also just recently found out about MD and it scares me how I just sit arround the house in my spare time, watching my life slip away. I'm trying to controll it now. Every time I realize I'm daydreaming I stop doing whatever I'm doing and collect my thoughtsand I go doing something else. Also, when I wake up in the moring I get up imediately and only allow myself to DD before bed. Although that is kind of problematic for my sleep. But I rather have sleeping problems than anything else. It has worked so far.

[Destiny Lund]

Yes, I know how it feels to not be working & having MD.  Even when I was in school though, it consumed my life.

[Patty]

I am not working either but hope to be soon.    One thing that helps me is that I have an alarm clock with a timer, so I set the timer for like 20 minutes and allow myself 20 minutes of DD and then I have to do a certain task.  And I have a white board or put reminders in my email so that I have a todo list that I can look at.  That alarm clock does help me but I have to push myself not to set it for another 20 minutes or 60 or whatever.  Ive found that I have to really push myself to get things done, but it does work.  Hang in there.