Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
After years of thinking I was crazy I finally got to meet people who understand what I am actually going through
I can’t remember when it all started but I was very young in my early childhood. I just wanted to be alone and day dream create my perfect world where I can be a superhero. I would spend hours simultaneous playing all the characters I have created in my mind. Once I had an imaginary boyfriend whom I ended up telling my friends about they never met him coz he never existed but I made him so real up until to this day my friend still count him as my ex when we chatting, lol. MD is a bad disorder but for me it helped me to escape the reality of my abusive father, the fact that you were the ugliest in the family, later being raped at the age of 13. I never felt any pain form all that bcoz I had my other world where I was the prettiest lady ever and my father adore me in that world.
When you get older it gets worse then I found myself spending days in doors playing my other world. Every time someone hurt me in the real world I move to the other world to cancel that scenario. When I was 21 it was worse and the fact that I did not know what this is what making things worse. It led to many attempted suicide that people did not understand why coz I am actually a cheerful person who always offers advice. I kept silence but the silence nearly killed me. I am 26 now and only had one boyfriend whom I dated for 7 years when he broke up with him everyone expected me to fall into pieces but I did not bcoz I created a world that he comes crawling back to me. I must admit MD is an escape from the pain in the real world. Can you believe that I kept my mother alive in my daydreams and did not what to admit she was dead!
I believe the is something different and special about MD people. Anyway I am so glad to have find people who can actually relate with me.
Currently I am studying and full time employed.